Monday, June 15, 2009

Love Song For a Savior

























"In open fields of wild flowers, She breathes the air and flies away, She thanks her jesus for the daises and the roses, In no simple language, Someday shell understand the meaning of it all, He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens, As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips, Someday shell trust him and learn how to see him, Someday hell call her and she will come running, And fall in his arms and the tears will fall down and shell pray, ... I want to fall in love with you... Sitting silent wearing sunday best, The sermon echoes through the walls, A great salvation through it calls to the people, Who stare into nowhere, and cant feel the chains on their souls ...
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens, As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips, Someday well trust him and learn how to see him, Someday hell call us and we will come running, And fall in his arms and the tears will fall down and well pray, ...
I want to fall in love with you... It seems too easy to call you savior, Not close enough to call you god, So as I sit and think of words I can mention, To show my devotion ... I want to fall in love with you... My heart beats for you" -Jars of Clay, Love Song For A Savior.

Some Pictures of my life.

Caroline and Jess... you can hate me.  But for reals, birds are cool.  They are free, and no matter how lame or childish, i wish i could fly.  Especially over the ocean.
again... refer to picture #1
beach!
zolwik.  (polish for turtle!)  everybody with serious faces from poland soon became not so serious.  i think people actually walked up to us and started conversation, which never happens.  and their angry faces (don't be confused... this is their normal expression :-) ) became happy!  So zolwik's solve a lot of life's big problems.  and it's cross cultural.  and bilingual except in english it's "turtle" not "zolwik"
Jess and i!  Oh, i really really like you a lot.
me being a soldier.  except i'm a pacifist.
Katie Yocham this is for you.  and Whitney Carmichael.  and every other animal loving, peace keeping, recycle minded friend of mine.  if i were to graffiti anything, this would be my slogan for sure.
Polish countryside.  or Polish clouds.  I think i like Polish clouds a lot.
This is the conference center in Czech... ya... that's old stuff, but it still brings good memories to my mind. :-)

Ooh I like German Coffee Mornings.

Once again, I can’t explain how I feel.  I think these entries are getting a little sappy with the overflow of imagery.  But I don’t really care, because I love listening to The Last Samurai soundtrack as I sit and write on Dan and Laura’s porch.  Today brings sunshine, and it adds a nice touch to my previously cold shoulders.  We just got back from a week away, and it is funny how “home” this new home away from home feels.  I love my family so so much.

Last week our team departed for Zielona Gora, Nowy Tomysl, and Karsibor.  We will be having English camps in Nowy Tomysl and Zielona Gora, so we traveled there in order to meet and prepare with the church and youth groups.  My five team members and I, Jess, Jordan, Kohl and Michal, along with a JV guy, Greg, jumped in the Fala (the Polish part of Josiah Venture) van “the machete”, and drove five hours north to Zielona Gora, which means green mountain.  It is a beautiful, and somewhat larger city.  Jess and I stayed at Lydia’s house in Zielona Gora.  Lydia didn’t speak much English, and we played the point and smile game a lot.  She is the stepmother of the pastor there.  She is a very good cook, and it was fun to try some authentic Polish food.  We also went to the local schools and taught English in some classes in order to promote our camp.  An English Camp is one of the ways Josiah Venture spreads the gospel.  Poles would love to go to a “foreign language summer camp”.  Haha.  That kinda sounds weird, or maybe it makes me feel like a language nerd because I like the sound of that.  J Many Polish youth have never heard of religion apart from the traditions of the Catholic Church.  They have truly never heard of the gospel.  Kids come to these camps because English is taught by native, American teachers.  English is a valuable language to know, and I never knew how lucky I am to have this natural gift.  Kids are open to hearing the gospel during the week, because relationships and trust are built.  It was so amazing to meet and talk to some of the very kids who will hear and accept Christ later this summer.  He has specifically chosen them, now and ever since the beginning of the world, to bear His name.  And He prepares them to feel His love.

“He lifts up a banner for the distant nations, he whistles for those at the ends of the earth.  Here they come, swiftly and speedily!”

-Isaiah 5:26

From Zielona Gora, we traveled two more hours east to Nowy Tomysl.  It is in the middle of nowhere, Poland.  (Kinda like Waco. Haha) They are known for a giant wicker basket they made.  It is the largest basket in the world, and won the Guinness World Record in 2006.  They proudly show it off in the town center.  But we stayed at the church there, and played with many of the kids in the town.  What a small town feel.  Greg left us here to meander the rest of our way through Poland.  Again, I got to go on a long run through the Polish countryside.  I listened to “Love Song for a Savior” by Jars of Clay.  I think that song sums up the cry of my heart.  I would say it is my song.

Then, we departed on Wednesday afternoon, throwing nerf toys at some kids through the windows as we drove off.  Five hours later, we reached Karsibor, at the very northwest corner of Poland.  It is a nice town, right on the ocean, and bordering Germany.  We stayed there a couple of days for a team retreat, getting to know our team well.  It is funny how distinct and different Germany is from Poland.  The border is pretty black and white in terms of wealth and cleanliness.  I swam in the frozen ocean, ran in the rain, learned some new Polish words, including “lewo (left) and prawo (right)”, and ate fish pizza.  Jess is such a sweetheart, and I love walking the beach with her, sitting on the dock watching the sunset with her, late night bed talks, coffee time, reading side by side, listening to thunder and rain, and picking out Polish chocolate.  She is a gift from God, and our lives teach each other so much.  I feel like parts of our lives were lived specifically for the sake of encouraging one another.

A theme this summer for me is not only identity in Christ (oh, how faithful God is to teach me about this J), but also listening.  On my morning runs, I have been trying to stop and listen to my ever-present friend.  The first morning, I listened in the middle of a giant field, where the grass surrounding me rose high above my head.  God whispered to me in the wind, “I am near.”  The grass swayed and danced right around me.  The second morning, I walked down a curvy, paved, little road.  My Sun God beamed brightly through the storm clouds.  He shone, “Trust Me.”  I looked into a puddle on the pavement and saw a reflection of the clouds in the water.  He is Creator.  The third day, I asked my friend to talk to me as I climbed into a tree.  I laid on a branch and heard the leaves shake violently in the presence of the powerful wind.  My Wind God again surrounded me.  (Like He ever isn’t there…)  “I am your shelter in the midst of the storm.”  I love this God.  He is beautiful.

And then we drove all day yesterday to get back here, to Mikolow.  I got to sit and talk to the Dan Hash for a while this morning about Genesis 37 and 38.  He is wise, and I love to learn.  Laura made me some fresh and strong, German coffee.  Jacob hugged me goodbye and left for school.  He is a really cool kid.  Maybe I might go watch Angels and Demons later today.  We leave to go work at the Polish camp, H2O, on Wednesday, and then we will be working at English Camps non-stop until the end of the summer.  But today is a nice day off.  I might even take a nap.

Peace.

Dowidzenia.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Pictures!

Aunt Laura and I in Budapest!

This is my team!



This is me trying to find the building we are looking for in vienna.  Is it the one?

I found my chapstick.

I don’t think I can amply put into words the beauty that surrounds me.  I am in Malenovenice, Czech at Josiah Venture’s conference center.  We just finished the “amazing race,” which is a race that all the intern teams from all eleven of Josiah Venture’s countries compete in.  Once you get off the plane in Vienna, you must race to Malenovenice with 70 euro per person.  We had to follow clues through Bratislava and Budapest.  This was very challenging as I slept a total of eleven hours in four days, constantly walking and running to the next step, with only one meal in my stomach.  We simply didn’t have money for food.  Haha.  But man, talk about getting over jet lag and bonding with your team really fast.  It was adventure, and I loved every minute of it… even when we missed the very last train home and had to jump a mystery train with no ticket.  We didn’t know where exactly it was headed, yet ran to catch it for over a mile because it could possibly lead us somewhere.  Anyways, now I am in Czech for intern training.  I am learning from the missionaries here, and drinking in the Word; for it is alive and active.  God is so very relational, and He is fulfilling me.  I was made for a relationship and He is the only One that pursues me and satisfies me, engulfing my every need.  He really loves me.

This morning I got up early to run through the dense fog and mist.  There are many forests here, and I ran besides a stream the whole way. Sometimes I couldn’t see the stream because of the fog, but I could constantly hear its trickle.  Czech is very green, and mountains surround me.  Fog reminds me of God’s presence.  The tall trees were covered the authority of the clouds. I ran through a couple of fields (one of my joys in life…) filled with wildflowers.  But I couldn’t see further than only a few feet in front of me.  More and more of this beautiful country would appear with every step I took into the fog.  I ran on cobblestone, up the steep, curving roads as the town awoke.  I looked up one moment and saw a magnificent church.  It was on the top of a hill looking out over the city.  I couldn’t help but kneel and pray at its doors.  I couldn’t see the view, but I knew my Father could.  God is my friend, and He travels with me.  Faith is beautiful, and God is beautiful.  He pursues me.

Today I sat down at the coffee shop with Laura, my aunt.  We talked for another hour, even after the long train rides, late nights, and meal conversations.  I know God blesses families and I am so encouraged by my aunt and uncle.  Laura’s faith makes my heart leap for joy, and I don’t think I can soak up enough of her aroma.  I can’t spend enough time with her.

I hope you read this note while listening to Mat Kearney’s new song, “All I Have.”  Just ponder his lyrics, and realize the truth of CS Lewis’ words, “The more we get what we now call ‘ourselves’ out of the way and let Him take us over, the more truly ourselves we become” (Mere Christianity).  Oh, and I pray for greater faith.  Because faith is the adventure I seek.  I just learned about it last night.  Living a monotonous life means that I am missing parts of the mountain.  I tend to only explore certain easy routes up the rock, but I overlook the exciting ones.  Jesus over and over told his disciples they didn’t have enough faith.  Faith is like a muscle and I need to exercise using it.  Faith is active, persistent, and obedient.  I love God’s bigger picture of faith, and I’m excited that God Himself wants to fulfill my cravings for adventure.  He doesn’t want people (the Hash’s), places (Poland), or sports (running/soccer/mountains) to substitute in me a purer, higher, more extreme adventure that He alone can provide through faith.